Seeking His Face

The Truths of the Gospel

2009-06-24T09:25:00.007-04:00

So it's been, what, four months since I last posted? Wow!

I can tell you without hesitation that the last year, and the last four months in particular, have proved the most challenging, transitional, and interesting months I have ever experienced! Throughout these last few months, I have learned so much: about God, about His Word, and about His people.

One of the truths I have been realizing anew is that of the Gospel.

And yes, I understood and believed the Gospel before my last post...

However, I am starting to see the Gospel's truths more clearly, and I can only attribute this to God and His mercy! Here are just a few of the truths about the Gospel that He has either taught me or reminded me of afresh:

~The Gospel is completely and utterly incomprehensible! The fact that God the Father would allow His Son to dwell with filthy, contaminated, sin-infested humans, and then to die a cruel and painful death for those humans, makes absolutely no sense!

Romans 5:8--"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us."

~The excruciating physical pain that Christ experienced on our behalf is not the only or even the primary point that should bring us to our knees. The most awe-inspiring truth is that every individual sin of every human being who ever lived, lives, or will live, was placed on a pure and perfect God. He bore all of my sins in that one moment on the cross, and God the Father turned His face away from His Son. All for me and you.

1 Peter 2:24--"He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed."

~Christ's resurrection completely and permanently dissolved sin's power over me. There is no condemnation, no restricted access to His throne, no fear in my relationship with Him.

Hebrew 4:16--"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."

Colossians 2:13-14--"When you were dead in your sins and in the uncircumcision of your sinful nature, God made you alive with Christ. He forgave us all our sins, having canceled the written code, with its regulations, that was against us and that stood opposed to us; he took it away, nailing it to the cross."

~The Gospel affects every aspect of my life. My worldview, my every decision, my every action, should be driven by my awareness of God's mercy and by the fact that the Gospel grants me "everything [I] need for life and godliness."

2 Peter 1:3--"His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness."

~When I become discouraged or overwhelmed by some challenge or trial, I only need to remember that Christ already took care of my biggest problem, that of sin and separation from Him, and that I can confidently place my trust in His control.

Hebrews 2:14-18--"Since the children have flesh and blood, he too shared in their humanity so that by his death he might destroy him who holds the power of death—that is, the devil— and free those who all their lives were held in slavery by their fear of death. For surely it is not angels he helps, but Abraham's descendants. For this reason he had to be made like his brothers in every way, in order that he might become a merciful and faithful high priest in service to God, and that he might make atonement for the sins of the people. Because he himself suffered when he was tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted."

How awesome is His mercy, and how AMAZING is His grace!

I want to encourage you: keep praying that God would increase your appreciation for and understanding of the Gospel! He is answering my prayer, and in doing so, He is giving me joy and a renewed love for our incredible God!

That's MY King!

2009-02-21T11:36:00.001-05:00

What Are You Learning?

2009-01-09T09:55:00.016-05:00

My mom started a weekly series called "What Are You Learning?" so that we can share with each other what God is teaching us, and so I decided to participate. If you'd like to share what God is teaching you, click on the link at the end of this post.

"Jesus is...asking for an internal sacrifice and yielding." (Oswald Chambers)

Complete surrender is so difficult! Lately I've been thinking about surrender and what it means, and honestly, I've had difficulty accepting the fact that God desires, well, total surrender, not just little bits and pieces of my life.

Total surrender means stepping out of my comfort zone! It means allowing Him to point me in a direction that I may not want to go! It means letting Him get all the glory and possibly not getting any for myself!

When I look at total surrender through my limited human perspective, it sounds miserable. Yet when I look at it through the lens of God's Word and realize that He's had my life planned out to the smallest, minutest detail since before the beginning of time; and when I remember that total surrender equals true joy (if not happiness), I'm filled with a sense of peace and gratefulness. God--the Creator of a universe so complex and enormous that the most brilliant scientific minds could not possibly understand it completely--that same God stoops down and carries me through this life. He works each detail of my life into His perfect plan!

Certainly, a God like that deserves my total surrender to His will! He deserves every ounce of my life!

I recently read this excerpt from "My Utmost for His Highest" (can you tell I enjoy this book??):

It is of no value to God to give Him your life for death. He wants you to be a "living sacrifice"--to let Him have all your strengths that have been saved and sanctified through Jesus (Romans 12:1). This is what is acceptable to God.

God wants all of me. He wants the gifts He has given me to be used for His glory. He wants my very existence to direct glory to Him.

I fall so pitifully short of total surrender, but God is always patient! Thank You Father!

If you want to participate in "What Are You Learning?" just visit my mom's blog and link your post to

2009-01-06T17:36:00.006-05:00

No matter what changes God has performed in you, never rely on them. Build only on a Person, the Lord Jesus Christ, and on the Spirit He gives. All our promises and resolutions end in denial because we have no power to accomplish them. When we come to the end of ourselves, not just mentally but completely, we are able to "receive the Holy Spirit." "Receive the Holy Spirit"--the idea is that of invasion. There is now only One who directs the course of your life, the Lord Jesus Christ.

~Oswald Chambers, from My Utmost For His Highest

But I WANT It!!

2008-12-30T11:18:00.014-05:00

Sometimes I feel dumb when people ask me, "So, what do you want to be when you get older?" I feel dumb because I'm really not sure what I want to do...as far as a professional career goes. I enjoy music, and that's what I'm majoring in right now, but I don't have a "passion" for it.

Quite honestly, the only "career" that I know I want is that of a wife and mother. Ever since I was a kid, that's been my one strong desire. And now that I'm 18, that desire is stronger than ever, especially since, technically, I'm old enough to be in a serious relationship (although at this point, I know for a fact I'm not ready for one! :-)

I often talk with my mom about my desire for romance and marriage, and about the struggles I face as a college freshman surrounded, not only by guys my age, but also by other girls who have their own boyfriends.

It's not just romance, though. I'm developing other desires as I grow and mature. Desires for more independence. I want to "do things on my own," like get a job, go out with friends, etc. However, my parents (and God) repeatedly remind me to trust in His timing and plan, and to not rush into things based on emotion and impulse.

For no particularly profound reason, I recently decided to start reading through 1 Kings. Chapters 1-2 tell the story of Adonijah, David's oldest surviving son, and of his desire to be "independent." He wanted his father David's throne, despite the fact that God had given that throne to his younger brother, Solomon. So, behind his father's back, he crowned himself king. With lots of friends cheering him on, he held his own coronation ceremony! He even performed the appropriate religious rituals and sacrifices.

When David found out, he held his own coronation ceremony for Solomon. Adonijah, realizing the trouble he was in, got scared and decided to submit to his brother's authority. However, he eventually resumed his quest for power, and as a result, Solomon had him executed.

What a lesson! Adonijah desired to be king. He desired to be independent. Yet his rebellion and persistence in resisting God's will cost him his life.

This story challenged me, and it reinforced what I've been taught for a long time: God's timing and will are best. If I push for what I want now (romance, independence, my own way, etc.), I will certainly regret it! It doesn't matter how many friends I get on my side; Adonijah had plenty of outside support. It doesn't matter what religious motions I go through to justify my rebellion; Adonijah made the required sacrifices to God. Getting my way in opposition to God's way is always sinful.

What if I decided to push for romance...and got my way? I would probably end up in a stressful relationship that would divert my focus from my present callings of being a student and a daughter. I could place myself in a dangerous situation that caused me to compromise my purity and end up married to the completely wrong guy!

What if I decided to force my independence...and got my way? I could end up holding a job with a horrible atmosphere and many potentially dangerous influences that could pull me down spiritually.

It's scary, but it's true! I'm so thankful that God is using His Word and my parents to warn me and to impress these truths into my mind and heart.

Father,

help me to pursue Your plan and purpose for my life.
Help me to focus on Your will for me,
and not to pursue my will for me.
Thank You for Your promises to meet all of my needs,
and thank you for the truth that if marriage
is a part of Your plan for me,
and if gaining a little more Independence
is in Your will,
You will provide all that is necessary!
I love You!
Amen.

Christmas Day Fun...

2008-12-26T18:34:00.007-05:00

We had a very relaxing Christmas Day, just hangin' at home! Here are some pics we took while out on a Christmas evening walk...

Dad (being goofy) and Mom.

Mom and my somewhat normal brother :-)

Me and Dad

Being manly...er...taking out the trash! :-)

Caleb showing off his trash-tossing skills...

Too true!! :-)

Undeserved Forgiveness

2008-12-22T13:03:00.008-05:00

"Forgiven" by Thomas Blackshear

May I always keep this image before me, Father.
You have chosen to love me,the one whose sin helped nail Your Son to the cross.You chose to send Him to earth,sacrifice Him in my stead,and place on Him the horrible and unfathomable punishmentthat should be mine:seperation from You.This sacrifice should cause me to cringe with horrorat the very thought of damaging my relationship with You.Keep the Gospel before my eyes.May it control everything I do, say, and think.Forgive me for treating Your sacrifice so carelessly.Thank You for Your undeserved mercy and incomprehensible love.Amen.

What a Head-ful!!!

2008-12-21T15:08:00.008-05:00

Whew!!!!

What a semester! The whole 4 months has been nothing but one big learning experience (that's why I've had trouble keeping up with you guys...)!

So...what has God taught me during these last few months?

1) College takes DISCIPLINE! Thankfully, I have some natural organizational skills. However, I don't know what I would do without Mom to help me lay out a schedule, focus on completing homework, and distract me when I need to be distracted! :-) My Dad is there to proof-read papers and to cheer me up when I am stressed (which is all too often!).

My brother...well...he provides the comic relief!

2) Staying in tune with God is vital. Keeping up with my devotions has proved especially difficult lately, especially with the never-ending homework, time-consuming piano practice, early morning volleyball workouts, church twice a week, precious family time, late study-nights (no all-nighters yet!)...I am ashamed to say that I was not as consistent in the Word as I should have been, especially during the first few weeks of school.

I realized early on what a difference it makes when I miss my quiet time. I began to see myself giving into temptations more easily. I saw how much harder it was to stand alone in a crowd.

Over and over again, God reminded me that a busy schedule is not an excuse to stop spending time in His Word! In fact, it is the very reason why I must stay in His Word!

Thanks to God, I have grown in this area. Yet, I still have a long ways to go. Praise God for His never-ending patience!

3) I must rely on God, not people. As I started the school year, I had high hopes of developing at least one tight, godly friendship. I am realizing that those expectations are not always realistic. I have made some new friends, but for various reasons, my schedule included, it's been difficult to develop close and godly friendships.

My mom and I have had many long talks on this subject, and I am slowly realizing that I need to trust in God's plans and timing. I need to draw close to Him and not place my hope in human companionship, not even that of other Christians.

4) I am so thankful for my family! I am meeting so many different kids with so many types of backgrounds; sometimes their stories amaze me! I praise God for how He has blessed me with a safe home, godly parents, and a wonderful church.

5) I am so thankful for church family. I especially want to praise God for my friend Courtney. We met when I was only 7 years old, when her family started attending our church. We've been friends ever since! Over this semester, I've grown to appreciate her more and more. She is a godly, talented young women who is striving to honor God and is always there for me when I need to talk about "stuff."

I am seeing more and more how difficult it is to find solid, godly friends. God has blessed me so much through Courtney!

~~~~~~~

There is a boatload more to learn, and I am somewhat excited--somewhat apprehensive--about what God's going to teach me next semester!

Right now...I'm just enjoying my BREAK!!

Cookie baking, Christmas shopping, room-organizing...
and lots and lots of SLEEPING!! :-)

Change my heart, Lord...

2008-11-16T21:14:00.016-05:00

Lord, I'm convicted that I am overly obsessed with earning acceptance and praise from others. I know this is wrong. I know this is a problem.

Help me to dwell on this unmovable, unchanging, absolute truth: Your love is all that I need. I don't need to "earn" that love because You grant it to me freely.

I don't need attention and adoration from the opposite sex, my peers, or the world to be completely fulfilled. Your favor, friendship, and approval are all that I need to satisfy me. Your faithfulness is the only truth that I can completely rest in and rely on. The only thoughts and feelings that I need to dwell on are those which center around Your unfailing love, power, righteousness, and greatness.

If you are my Satisfaction, my one consuming Thought, the One Who infiltrates my thoughts, desires, and innermost longings, I will be completely satisfied. Give me a pureness of heart. I cannot develop this purity by myself. I can only become completely consumed by You if I walk by Your Spirit and stay constantly connected to You, I can only be connected to You through Your Word and through a spirit of prayer, praise, trust, love, and desire for You.

Help me to bring my thoughts into captivity, and to center my thoughts around YOU, not around ME and the attention that I want.

You are so merciful!

I love you!

Amen.

I've Been Uber-ed!!!

2008-11-16T20:33:00.005-05:00

Thanks to Laney and Julia...they are so sweet to award me... :-)

Uber is a German word that is similar to our English word which means "super".
This award is awarded to blogs that have some or all of these qualities:
They...
1. Inspire you
2. Make you smile and laugh
3. Give amazing information
4. Are a great read
5. Have an amazing design
6. And any other reasons you can think of that makes them uber amazing!

The rules to this award are:
1. Put the logo on your blog or post.
2. Nominate at least 5 blogs (can be more) that for you are Uber Amazing! ***if you don't have 5 that's okay.***
3. Let them know that they have received this Uber Amazing award by commenting on their blog.
4. Share the love and link to this post and to the person you received your award from.

I'm awarding Jordan, because she has a beautiful blog, has a heart for God, and is a good friend,
Kaysie, because even though she's already been awarded, she just deserves more than one :); her blog is incedibly encouraging and challenging to me...
and my Mom, because she is such vitally important, loving influence and guide in my life, and because her blog blesses so many!

2008-11-10T22:53:00.007-05:00

I just bought this song. It's from the album "This Is Our God" by Hillsong, and it's GORGEOUS! Enjoy!

Desert Song
by Brooke Fraser

This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

I will bring praise, I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice, I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow.

The Proverbs 31 Challenge

2008-11-08T11:09:00.004-05:00

My Mom told me about this online Bible Study recently and encouraged me to use it. So...I am! The challenge is to read Proverbs 31 every day for 31 days. I also read a daily devotional by Nancy Leigh DeMoss; each devotional deals with a different element found in Proverbs 31. I've enjoyed it so far, and I'd encourage you to check it out for yourselves!
Since I'm having trouble finding time to regularly post, I think I might just post the things that I'm learning from this Bible Study...since I'm already taking notes on it anyway...so come back soon... :-)

I'm SUCH A LAZY BUM!

2008-10-21T21:37:00.017-04:00

Well, not all of the time! But seriously...

So many times I slack off on the essentials, like...

~Quiet time...one that I've put effort into, not slept
through and then checked off my to-do list.

~Relationships...making the effort to be a godly
friend/sister/daughter, even when it gets hard.

~Self-control...not giving into my emotions at the
difficult moments, but focusing on God and on how He wants me to respond.

~Standing alone...saying "no" to temptation...even when it's
super, super, super hard!!

...among numerous others.

Basically, I don't always DO THE HARD THING.

I know I'm not the only one who slacks...but I've also been convicted recently that I can't become complacent. I can't become content where I am in my spiritual walk. I must be so sensitive to the Holy Spirit as He pushes me towards a God/cross-focused life.

God will finish what He's started in me, no matter how I choose to live my life, either in this life or the one to come! THANK YOU GOD!

But...I DO NOT want waste my time here...the time that HE has entrusted to me...just "getting by."

I recently heard my teacher talk about 2 Thessalonians 3:13-

"And as for you, brethren, do not become weary or lose heart in doing right [but continue in well-doing without weakening]." (Amplified Bible)

He explained that the word "weary" actually implies "lazy." "Do not become [LAZY] in doing right." That insight placed a whole new spin on the verse for me. Way too often, I blame my laziness on "just being too tired" or "weak," when I should be humbled and repentant because of my careless attitude towards His love for me. I demonstrate this carelessness when I classify my Christian walk with "the mundane" or the "daily routine" and cease pushing forward.

Oh God, do a work in my heart! Forgive my laziness...please, PLEASE continue to remind me that I need to let YOU guide and control me; I can't ignore the Hard Things that are essential to honoring You. I must not take the love You showed me on the cross for granted!! Keep waking me up, Lord!

Thanks for your PATIENCE with me! Amen.

And yes...that is my cat! :-)

"Give Me Your Eyes"

2008-10-17T21:49:00.007-04:00

By Brandon Heath

Looked down from a broken sky,

Traced out by the city lights.

My world from a mile high,

Best seat in the house tonight.

Touched down on the cold black tile,

Hold on for the sudden stop.

Breath in the familiar shock

Of confusion and chaos.

All those people going somewhere?

Why have I never cared?

Chorus: Give me your eyes for just one second,

Give me your eyes so I can see

Everything that I keep missing

Give me your love for humanity.

Give me your arms for the broken hearted,

The ones that are far beyond my reach.

Give me your heart for the once forgotten

Give my your eyes so I can see.

yeah yeah

Step out on a busy street,

See a girl and our eyes meet.

Does her best to smile at me,

To hide whats underneath.

There's a man just to her right,

Black suit and a bright red tie

Too ashamed to tell his wife

He's out of work,

He's buying time.

All those people going somewhere?

Why have I never cared?

Chorus: Give me your eyes for just one second,

Give me your eyes so I can see

Everything that I keep missing.

Give me your love for humanity.

Give me your arms for the broken hearted,

The ones that are far beyond my reach.

Give me your heart for the once forgotten,

Give me your eyes so I can see.

yeah yeah

I've Been there a million times

A couple of million eyes

just move and pass me by

I swear I never thought that I was wrong

Well I want a second glance

So give me a second chance

To see the way you see the people all alone

Chorus: Give me your eyes for just one second,

Give me your eyes so I can see,

Everything that I keep missing,

Give me your love for humanity.

Give me your arms for the brokenhearted,

the ones that are far beyond my reach,

Give me your eyes for the once forgotten,

Give me your eyes so I can see.

yeah yeah

So I'm Going To College...

2008-10-08T19:23:00.004-04:00

I found this video through the Rebelution. It's very challenging...

A Witnessing Opportunity

2008-10-08T16:49:00.013-04:00

I have a paper due tomorrow! And guess what...you'll get to see it before my professor does! :-) Our assignment was to write a dialogue in which we "engrafted" Scripture into a Gospel presentation. In other words, we're supposed to quote Scripture without directly quoting it. I based my dialogue on an experience that I had about a year and a half ago, when I was working at my dad's sports camp. I was talking to one of the junior counselors about music, and about why I only listened to Christian music. This boy was not a believer, and he thought I was really weird.... :-)

Anyway, I responded to his questioning with some lame answer like, "Well, I have my taste in music and you have yours!" Afterwards, Mom and I talked about how I could have responded by sharing specifically why I listen to Christian music...because I am a Christian!!

So anyway, I based my paper on that experience; I kind of wrote down how I wished the scenario had turned out! :-)

A Witnessing Opportunity

“Why on earth do you listen to so much Christian music? Don’t you ever listen to secular music?”
I turned to face the teenage boy who was speaking and grinned at his incredulous expression. “Lord, this kid thinks I’m a nut!” I thought. Then out loud I replied, “Not usually, Jay. I really appreciate the lyrics of most Christian music, and so I usually prefer it over most secular stuff.” I knew this reply would not satisfy Jay. Even though he was a fellow counselor at the local Christian day camp where I was working, his attitudes, actions, and words made it clear that he was quite clueless about Christianity.
"Yeah, well you obviously have no clue about all of the quality music that’s out there!” Jay’s demeanor grew more and more sarcastic. “Be honest, Bri, you probably just listen to Christian music because your parents won’t let you listen to anything else. Why don’t you try branching out and having a mind of your own? ”
“Actually, I do listen to some secular music, Jay. I’m not sheltered, I just don’t like the fact that so much music brings the listener down, both mentally and emotionally. Seriously, think about the messages that many song lyrics send. They talk about sex, drugs, alcohol, bad attitudes...it’s not information that I want to feed into my brain!”
"Oh, come on, Bri! They’re just songs! You won’t become a drug addict if you listen to one song about drugs!” “Maybe not, but, Jay, I’m a Christian.”
“Oh, so it’s your religion then. You just follow a bunch of rules, and you believe that if you listen to Christian music, you’ll impress God!”
“Nope…that’s not it at all. Actually, God comes right out and says that no one is perfect. It’s impossible for us to impress Him or to live up to His standards because we’re such bums!”
Jay’s look morphed from one of sarcasm to one of total confusion. “Well then what is the point of even trying to please your God if it’s so impossible?”
"The point? Well, I guess the point is that I’m so grateful to Him for all He’s done for me that I try to please Him every chance I get.”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean that He’s so awesome and merciful, that I try to thank Him for His love by honoring Him and by feeding my mind with good information that encourages me to obey Him. He loves me so much, Jay! Even though He knows I mess up all the time, He still wants to be my friend! He’s done everything He can to make it possible for me to have fellowship with Him. He loved me first, and so I love Him back.”
“Oh yeah?” I was surprised at the interest in Jay’s tone. “Well, what specifically did He do to make you fall all over yourself trying to please Him?”
“Well, since He knew that there was no possible way for me to fellowship with Him
because of my sin, and because He loved the world so much, He gave up His only Son, Jesus. Jesus, who was completely perfect, came to earth and became sin for me. He took all of my punishment and died on the cross so that God could forgive me and cover me with His own perfection.”
I could tell Jay was listening intently, and I was sure I saw some comprehension creep into his face.
“Well, that’s really nice and everything, but what’s the point of trying to please someone who’s dead?”
“Well, actually, He’s not dead. After three days under ground, God raised Him from the dead because death was not strong enough to hold Him down! He conquered death, and that means that we can enjoy eternal life and complete fellowship with God!” “Eternal life? That sounds a little over the top, Bri.”
“I know it does, but it’s true. God says that if we believe in Jesus and in the fact that God raised Him from the dead, and if we admit that Jesus is our all-powerful Lord, we will be rescued from death.”
“That’s all there is to it? Just believing? Man, it sounds so simple! But what about after you believe? What if you really mess up? Does God get mad and disown you?”
“Nope! God actually says that when we believe in Him, He seals us with His Spirit! His Spirit is a permanent guarantee that our salvation will last forever! Isn’t that amazing?” Just talking about the Gospel and meditating on His mercy was stirring up great excitement in my heart. “Lord,” I prayed, “please touch Jay and draw Him to Yourself! Help him to understand!”
Since the beginning of our conversation, Jay’s attitude had undergone a complete change from one of mocking confusion to one of intent interest. Now he seemed to snap back to his original indifference.
“Ok, well, uh, I gotta start setting up lunch now.” He started to walk away, but then suddenly stopped and turned back to face me. “Hey, could I talk to you about this again?”
I was excited by the genuineness of this request. “That’d be awesome! Maybe after lunch…?”
He nodded and walked away, and I quietly thanked God for giving me the right words to say and for revealing to me how to clearly and tactfully communicate the appropriate Scriptures. God was working in Jay’s heart, and in mine!

Please Pray...

2008-09-23T07:59:00.006-04:00

Yesterday, the following e-mail was sent out to the faculty and staff at the college/seminary where my dad works and where I attend:

"Please join us in prayer. We just received news that our co-worker and brother Anthony E...(...Staff, Adjunct...Faculty, [Seminary]Student) passed away and is now with his Lord. We are not sure of the details. Please be in prayer for his wife Kristi (...Alumna) and for his brother-in-law Bernt K...(...Staff,...Alumnus) and Anthony’s family as they grieve his loss.

We will be breaking from classes at 6:45 p.m. tonight to inform our students. Please join us at this time if you are available. Please be in prayer for our campus community."

It took a matter of minutes for the news to spread to the student body. PLEASE pray for our campus; Anthony's death was completely unexpected and sudden, and many students/faculty are taking it hard. Anthony and Kristi had only been married for 1 1/2 years. He was an awesome person; he was so funny and always friendly and welcoming. Everyone will miss him greatly.

Cougar Volleyball

2008-09-18T23:08:00.011-04:00

Last weekend my volleyball team took a long, LONG road trip...to Kentucky! We left on Thursday and came home on Sunday; we played 4 matches in one weekend! Needless to say, it was quite a tiring experience! Despite the exhaustion, it was a lot of fun, as well as a great learning experience. I'm so grateful for the opportunity God has given me to play on this specific volleyball team...I have enjoyed myself greatly, and I have also been stretched physically, mentally, and spiritually.

Here are some awesome pics from the KY trip, courtesy of Kathryn (one of our assistant coaches/team photographer).

Go Cougar Volleyball!!

One cool team... :-)

I'll tell you what, Tabitha can KILL that ball...

...seriously...

you don't want to stand in that ball's way!! :-)

Me passing!!

Me serving!!

"Calling all team captains..."

Team huddle

We played well..had fun...and we got to eat Dairy Queen ice cream! How much better can it get!?!?! :-)

Please continue to pray for me as I am still adjusting to the college work load...I'm TIRED!!!

Love you guys!

God-vision

2008-09-07T19:08:00.009-04:00

The other day in class, one of my professors repeated a quote he had heard once; it is so challenging and goes against everything my flesh desires. The quote was,

Don't sacrifice the ultimate on the altar of the immediate.

He also warned that "it's really easy to give up the potential of tomorrow for the glory of today."
Wow!
This professor was talking about the importance of vision in the Christian life. And no...he was NOT talking about the stereotypical "vision" that so many people, believers and nobelievers alike, strive for...you know...the "follow-your-heart-and-do-what-you-want-to-do" kind of vision. No, he was talking about "seeing beyond today"...realizing that, most of the time, following fleshly impulses is a dangerous thing.
My professor went on to say that the Christian also needs "Clear and convicted decisions." They must know "where they're going," and they must be determined that they are "not going to sell out to anyone but Jesus Christ." Amen Professor Leigh!

Dear Lord,

Help me to stay focused on You.

It's so hard sometimes; hundreds of different things

divert my attention from You and Your truth every day.

So often I give into my flesh,

dwelling on those subjects that are either impure and foolish,

or unnecessary and unimportant.

Help me to stay focused on YOUR TRUTH.

Help me to have God-vision:

vision that is zeroed in on living for and selling out to You ALONE.

Help me to "Do Hard Things,"

and to never "sacrifice the ultimate on the altar of the immediate."

Thank You so much for Your incredible and unending

patience.

Amen.

Super Secret Angels

2008-09-03T19:24:00.005-04:00

I should have written this much, much sooner...
September 6 is the deadline to apply to be a "Super Secret Angel"!! The last session was a lot of fun and I encourage you to think about submitting an application form...just check out the Super Secret Angel blog!

Oh yeah...BLOGGING....

2008-09-02T20:36:00.006-04:00

Remember me?!?!?! I'm that person who used to post 2-3 times a week...I'm very sorry that I haven't posted in so long!

I have several good excuses for why I haven't been consistently posting and several not so good ones...the good ones are 1) our Internet has been down for several days and just started working today, and 2) COLLEGE involves a lot of WORK!

Wow...novel concept... :-)

I'd like to share several prayer requests along with several praises to God. I'll PTL first...

1) I love my Bible classes. I am taking two this semester, and both of them are challenging me spiritually. They "force" me to study God's Word regularly and from a different perspective than I have had in the past.

2) My music classes are definitely stretching me mentally; that's a good thing. I have two of these classes, and, well, let's just say that I'm honestly astounded that people actually sit down and think up all of this theory stuff!!! I'm also experiencing what it's like to be in a choir (GO ALTOS!) . I've never been a choir member before, and so far it's been challenging and fun.

3) I'm greatly enjoying my experience on the volleyball team thus far. We had our first game yesterday afternoon; we played in NC and were gone from 7am-12am!! **HUGE SKULL BUSTING YAWN** We lost, but we had a BLAST!! :-) We also played pretty well, considering it was our first game...

4) I am SOOO thankful that I am able to live at home during college! My parents are so helpful, and I honestly don't know what I'd do without them.

Now for some prayer requests.

1) Please pray that I will learn to use my time wisely and efficiently. I always get my work done on time, but I tend to procrastinate as much as possible. I also need to plan out my day so that I have time for QT...which I know is vital as I strive to grow in my spiritual walk.

2) Pray that I'd learn to control my emotions. I STRESS over a lot of stuff--everything from homework to volleyball to friendships--and I know that I MUST bring my emotions under Christ's control if I want to glorify God throughout these years in college (not to mention the rest of my life).

3) Please pray that I would be bold and that I would be sensitive to the Holy Spirit as I experience situations which challenge me to stand alone. It is so hard!!! I think college is going to stretch me mentally, physically, and spiritually; it will force me to make choices between doing the "easy thing" and doing the "Hard Thing."

4) Please pray that I would have the attitude of John the Baptist: "He must increase and I must decrease." I am constantly tempted to zero in on myself and to forget that there are others around me who need encouragement and love. I have a responsibility to build up my brothers and sisters in Christ, no matter how I feel at any given point in time.

Thanks for being patient with me as try to fit blogging into my schedule. Hopefully I'll be able to post at least twice a week; however, it may be a week or two before I get into "the groove." Just know that I am NOT dumping this blog or the blogs of my friends...I love you guys and I love blogging...

No Fear!

2008-08-21T12:32:00.004-04:00

2 Timothy 1:7: "For God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness, but one of power, love, and sound judgment."

Such a familiar, simple, yet profound statement. "God has not given us a spirit of fearfulness."

Think about that...we have no reason to fear anything: not temptation, not trials, not the high cost of standing alone. When we're faced with a tough decision, we don't have to freak out and and make a rushed choice. We can make a choice based on "sound judgement." God gives wisdom. Hallelujah!

I'm starting school next Tuesday, and I've already started pre-season volleyball workouts. I know I will be faced with tough choices (in fact, I already have). I don't have to shy away from righteousness because I'm scared of what people might think or because it's just plain easier to NOT do the "hard thing." The same power that "raised Christ from the dead" resides in me. I have been given a spirit of power. God gives strength. Hallelujah!

Just some thoughts...

Musical Monday

2008-08-18T21:20:00.006-04:00

As I get ready to start college, I'm trying to prepare myself, both mentally and spiritually, for the challenges that are ahead. I'm trying to memorize verses that will help me as I face temptation and overwhelming circumstance. I've also discovered how listening to music with powerful lyrics can encourage me to walk with God...and I've discovered a new CD that contains just such music: "Come Weary Saints", by Sovereign Grace Music. The song below (one of the tracks from the CD) is especially beautiful.

Every Day

by Todd Twining and Joel Sczebel

In Your grace, You know where I walk
You know when I fall
You know all my ways
In Your love, I know You allow
What I cannot grasp
To bring You praise

Thank You for the trials
For the fire, for the pain
Thank You for the strength
Knowing You have ordained
Every day

Your great power is shown when I’m weak
You help me to see
Your love in this place
Perfect peace is filling my mind
And drawing my heart
To praise You again

In my uncertainty, Your Word is all I need
To know You’re with me every day

~~~~~~~

Absolutely beautiful! What an incredibly challenging and encouraging song!!

Check Out This Oh-So-Challenging Article...

2008-08-14T13:56:00.009-04:00

No Little People
by...or should I say "through"...Tim Sweetman

I found this link through the Rebelution website.

Here's a peek...

"...it's not about who we are in the public eye. It's about who God is. He works through us, and it's His grace alone that allows us to do anything, that brings meaning to the mundane. It was none of Moses' work that saved the Israelites. God received all the credit. I've found that when I put too much credit in 'big' people or 'small' people, I take away from God's fame and glory. "'God so used a stick of wood' can be a banner cry for each of us," wrote Francis Schaeffer. 'Though we are limited in talent, physical energy, and psychological strength, we are not less than a stick of wood. But as the rod of Moses had to become the rod of God, so that which is me must become the me of God. Then I can become useful in God's hands.'
I want to be a stick of wood. His stick of wood..."

To read the rest of this article, click on the link above...

Cleaning Off the Shelves

2008-08-11T19:41:00.015-04:00

In preparation for my first semester of college, which starts on the 25th, I've been cleaning out my room. I want to have plenty of room for BOOKS, and I also want to start the year in an organized fashion.

So today I cleaned off my bookshelves and re-organized my closet. I threw out some junk, and packed away lots of old books...Nancy Drew, Elsie Dinsmore, Boxcar Children, Little House...:-( It's almost hilarious how much shelf space I had after putting those books away! Aren't my shelves beautiful?!?!

All that cleaning reminds me of how I need to ask God to clean out the junk that's in my heart. I know that I must not become complacent in my spiritual walk; if I want to stay close to God and bring glory to Him, I must allow God to scrape out all of the "gunk." I've seen a lot of "gunk" and "junk" in my heart lately. Even though I can become overwhelmed by all the stuff I need to work on, I'm also grateful for this evidence of the Holy Spirit in my life. I'm grateful that He's shown me my faults, and that I know what I need to work on.

Just like cleaning off my shelves enabled me to use the space more efficiently, allowing God to clean out my sin-filled heart allows me to be more powerfully used by God. Isn't that so cool?

Psalm 139:23-24~"Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my concerns. See if there is any offensive way in me; lead me in the everlasting way."

Spreading the Word...

2008-08-08T10:47:00.007-04:00

Lately I've been thinking about my responsibility to share the Gospel. I recently read the following passage from Matthew (the Great Commission):

"Then Jesus came near and said to them, 'All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. Go, therefore, and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe everything I have commanded you. And remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.'"

Now, like most of you, I've heard those verses over, and over, and over, and over...but they usually just bounce in one ear and out the other! The last time I read them, however, I read my Bible's footnote about those verses. It said:

"All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth. This is the meaning of the statement 'Jesus is Lord.' Since there is no power greater than His (Rom. 8:38-39; Phil. 2:9-11; Col. 1:15-20) there is no other loyalty to which His disciples can give their absolute allegiance."

I looked up the above mentioned verses; here they are:

Romans 8:38-39: "For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing will have the power to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord!"

Philippians 2:9-11: "For this reason God also highly exalted Him and gave Him
the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every
knee should bow--of those who are in heaven and on earth and under the
earth--and every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to
the glory of God the Father."

Colossians 1:15-20: "He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation; because by Him everything was created, in heaven and on earth, the visible and the invisible, whether thrones or dominions or rulers or authorities--all things have been created through Him and for Him. He is before all things, and by Him all things hold together. He is also the head of the body, the church; He is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead, so that He might come to have first place in everything. For God was pleased to have all His fullness dwell in Him, and through Him to reconcile everything to Himself by making peace through the blood of His cross--whether things on earth or things in heaven."

Christ is supreme. He is Ruler of all. No circumstances, earthly rulers, physical health conditions...nothing has the power to separate us from His love! Not only that, but God the Father Himself exalted Christ to a position that is higher than any other in the universe. Whoa! I owe Him all of my worship and allegiance and awe! That last passage is especially amazing. It states that Christ is "the image" of God, the "firstborn over all creation." This passage also says that "all things have been created through Him and for Him."

I have been created "for Him." My whole goal in life should be to direct glory and attention to Him. I should live life with Him as my central focus.
Like the footnote in my Bible said, His absolute power and authority demand my complete allegiance...this includes the commitment to spread His glory to everyone and anyone that I can. One way I spread the Gospel is through my personal testimony; sometimes actions speak more loudly than words. But I shouldn't shy away from spreading the Gospel verbally, either. Personally, I am not good in this area. I have no excuse; I know I have had opportunities come my way.

Last summer, I worked for my dad during the summer sports camps that he runs; I was his "administrative assistant." :-) I also helped set up lunch every morning, along with several other junior counselors who were around my age. Several of these kids were Catholic in name, but they obviously did not understand who Christ was. This was evident by the questions they asked me about my faith. I remember one day when one of the young girls asked me, "So, what do you believe?" I proceeded to explain that I believed Christ had died on the cross, thereby redeeming us from sin, and then rose again on the third day. I kind of laughed to myself when, as another junior counselor walked in, this young lady told him cheerfully, "I've been finding out about her religion!" It was strange to have someone call Christianity a "religion," even though I know that's the way the world sees faith in Christ's redemption. Isn't is it tragic that this young girl, and millions like her, see this incredible personal relationship with Christ as "just another religion"?

Unfortunately, I did not let this feeling drive me to fearlessly share why my faith was not just another religion. I shared what I believed, but I "tippy-toed" in sharing...I didn't want to freak them out!Even though I shared the gospel, I could feel myself (then and throughout the week) shying away from being really bold in proclaiming the gospel. I didn't want to offend them. I didn't want them to think I was "weird" or "super conservative."

It's kind of funny, but when I'm out of that kind of that situation, I come up with the eloquent speeches and responses that I will give when someone asks me about my faith. I seem to think that it's sometimes "easy" to share the gospel. But it's not...for me! I don't like to initiate those kinds of conversations!

But after my QT the other day, I realized that I don't have any reason not to share the gospel! In fact, I owe it to Christ to share His glory! He is all-powerful...and yet so often I dare to ignore that power, shrugging off the responsibility to witness!

Something else I've been challenged with lately is that I can "witness" to other believers. I can and should be an example to my brothers and sisters in Christ. Like my story above demonstrates, I struggle with being a "people-pleaser" rather than a "God-pleaser." I'm like a chameleon at times; I try to blend into the crowd around me, even if "blending in" equals "compromising." But Christ expects more out of me...His child for whom He gave His life. The child who He loves with a love which cannot be weakened. Ever. I must strive to live up to His expectations, not the expectations of those around me.

Another thing: Christ experienced many, many "uncomfortable situations"...and He persevered through the most uncomfortable of them all: excruciating death on a cross. He also suffered betrayal by close friends, mockery...I mean, for crying out loud, He was spit on!! If He went through all that "uncomfortableness" for me, shouldn't I be willing to experience discomfort for His sake, so that I can in some way repay Him for all that He's done for me?

I just came across a video on Kaysie's blog, "Cross-Eyed", that happened to deal with how to share Christ despite our fears. I encourage you to check it out.

OK, so I've typed my head off and shared all this stuff...now I've got to go out and practice it!

Thankful Thursday

2008-08-06T22:41:00.011-04:00

Today I am thankful for my parents. Yesterday was their 20th wedding anniversary! They love each other so much; they are committed to each other and to God, and they continually work to build both of those relationships. I also appreciate the fact that they clearly demonstrate their love for each other. They don't hide it...that's for sure! :-) Mom and Dad are also wonderful parents. They've homeschooled my brother and I for 13 years now and have proven to be excellent teachers!! I'm so grateful for them and for their wisdom and guidance.

Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad! I love you so much!

Iris is our host. Click here to visit her blog and to see other people's Thankful Thursdays!

P.S. I'm also thankful for my beautiful new blog design! Isn't it awesome? Thanks to Ms. Judi from Doodlebug Designs for creating it!

Musical Monday

2008-08-04T21:27:00.007-04:00

God of Justice (We Must Go)
by Tim Hughes

God of Justice, Saviour to all,
Came to rescue the weak and the poor,
Chose to serve and not be served.

Jesus, You have called us.
Freely we've received,
Now freely we will give.

We must go, live to feed the hungry,
Stand beside the broken,
We must go.
Stepping forward, keep us from just singing,
Move us into action,
We must go.

To act justly everyday,
Loving mercy in every way,
Walking humbly before You God,

You have shown us, what You require.
Freely we've received,
Now freely we will give.

Fill us up and send us out,
Fill us up and send us out,
Fill us up and send us out Lord.
~~~~~

We sang this song at the "Do Hard Things" Conference last Saturday. Isn't it so challenging? I love the lines, "Stepping forward, keep us from just singing, move us into action, we must go." Amen! What a kick to the ol' spiritual funny bone...the conscience, that is! It is so easy to forget those "moments of enlightenment." So often, I'll be strongly convicted concerning an area in which I am lacking...and then I'll move on with life...acting as if that conviction means nothing.

Father, "stepping forward, keep me from just blogging, move me into action, I must go!!"

The "Do Hard Things" Conference--A Life Changing Experience!

2008-07-31T17:50:00.017-04:00

Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't posted in a while...
Wow...there are not enough words to describe just how awesome the "Do Hard Things" Conference was. It was challenging, exciting, inspiring, convicting, encouraging, incredible, amazing, eye-opening...
I cannot remember attending an event that was so thought-provoking--ever! Brett and Alex Harris have such a gripping and motivating message to share, and their commitment to Christ and to spreading HIS glory is so refreshing. So...how did this message change me personally?

Firstly, the phrase "Do Hard Things" now consistently runs through my mind. When I know in my head that I should choose the right thing over the easy thing, I am more aware than I ever was before that I need to choose the right thing. I DON'T ALWAYS SUCCEED, but I feel like I'm growing. PTL!

Secondly, I was challenged to think how our culture's low expectations are affecting me. I've grown up in a Christian, Bible-believing, supportive household. Both my parents love God and love their kids, and they are consistently guiding us on to maturity. I came to Christ when I was 3. It it very tempting to think that just because I am surrounded by godly people and encouraged to make good choices, I'm not as affected by the culture's low expectations. However, now that I think about it (which I am right now), I am affected. Maybe not in the so-called "drastic" ways that others are (drugs, alcohol, immorality, etc.), but in more subtle ways. For example, laziness comes into play when I don't consistently read God's Word. One of the points which the Harris brothers pointed out is that great danger lies in becoming complacent. It's so hard not to think, "well, I may flirt sometimes, but not nearly as blatantly as those other girls do..." when the truth is that any flirtation is wrong and should be cut out of my life.

Well...here are the awesome pics I took...enjoy!

Praise and worship time...it was amazing!

Alex and Brett Harris

I got my shirt signed by the Harris brothers! It was really neat to meet them!

Mom and me.

Arya, Christine, and their mom...

I am so grateful that I was able to attend this conference! If you want to see more pictures, click here.

To see a picture of ME getting my shirt signed, click HERE!

This young man accepted the Lord and was sitting behind us. It really impacted me to see a teen boy standing and crying, and not being ashamed! Click HERE!

The Rebelution Conference

2008-07-25T09:47:00.012-04:00

I'm re-posting (is that even a word??) this video, since my family and I are attending the conference TOMORROW!!! YAY!! I'll post and let you know how it goes!

Below is a portion of one of the Rebelution blog's latest posts:

In the book Worship Matters, Bob Kauflin writes that “each of us has a battle raging within us over what we love most — God or something else.” He’s right. Worship is crucial, because every day there is a battle raging for our hearts. The enemy wants us to find our joy in the pleasures of sin and the distractions of this world. It’s vital that we fight back, for God makes it clear in His Word that if He doesn’t have our hearts, our outward service is wasted energy (Matthew 15:8-9).

To read the rest of this article...click here.

Passion and Purity by Elizabeth Elliot

2008-07-23T08:26:00.011-04:00

I recently started reading Passion and Purity by Elizabeth Elliot. Mrs. Elliot was the wife of Jim Elliot, the missionary who was killed by the Auca (Waodani) Indians in 1956. This book is the story of her relationship with Jim. Filled with snippets from her personal journals, as well as Bible verses, hymn lyrics, etc., it is the story of a young couple who greatly loved each other yet chose to wait. Not only did they maintain their purity, but they also made the difficult decision to hold off on marriage until they were certain of God's will for their lives. Neither one was certain that God wanted them to marry...ever. They both knew that going with their emotions and marrying outside of God's will would jeopardize their commitment to Christ and His glory. Though it was extremely difficult to rely on His perfect plan, which they realized could include singleness, they trusted God to make His will clear in His perfect timing. Below is an especially challenging portion of their story. It takes place right after they confessed their feelings for each other and committed, for the time being, to not become engaged.
E. Elliot says:

I began to learn to wait. Patient waiting does not come naturally to most of us, but a great deal is said about it in the Bible. It is an important discipline for anyone who wants to learn to trust....
[Journal entry from] June 9, 1948--....To wait on the Lord is to stand perfectly still....can [Jim and I] trust His words, "Is not the Lord your God with you? and hath he not given you rest on every side?..." (1 Chronicles 22:18)
....It was on the evening of the same day, June 9, that Jim and I walked out to a cemetery and sat down on a stone slab. I told him I did not think it would help us much in discerning God's direction if we started right in on a heavy correspondence. Wouldn't it make more sense to "cool it"? Not that we used that expression in those days, but it says what I meant. To allow for the perspective that both distance and silence could give might help us to see the whole thing with cool reason.
Jim thought that over for a few minutes. Then he spoke of the story he had read in his Bible study that morning--the story of Abraham's offering up of the most precious thing in his life: his son Isaac. "So I put you on the altar," he said.
Slowly we became aware that the moon, which had risen behind us, was casting the shadow of a stone cross on the slab between us.
We were silent for a very long time, pondering this undeniable sign. What Abraham did was the ancient prelude to the full revelation of the love of God. The readiness to give up his son and the rewards promised because of it--again, the central truth of the Cross was brought to us in a strange and mysterious manner. When the silence became heavy, Jim said, "And what is to be done with the ashes?" Time would show.

What a challenging story! Two people who were willing to give up what their flesh longed for the most in order to follow God's design and purpose for their lives! They were willing to keep Christ and the truth of the Cross at the center of their hearts.
Lord, I pray that You would plant within me a desire to follow You alone, and that I would be willing to give up what I want so that You might be glorified and honored through my life. Amen.

My Brother

2008-07-18T09:06:00.008-04:00

OK, so I guess this is kind of a "Thankful Friday" post...because today I'm thankful for my brother! Caleb is 14 and a freshman in highschool. He loves soccer, Lego's (he currently owns a set that is comprised of over 3,000 pieces!), and computer games, and he also enjoys hanging out at the gymnasium where our dad works. He has a wonderful sense of humor; there is never a dull moment when he's around! He's wonderful with little kids and loves making people laugh. He has a sensitive heart that wants to do what is right, and we love him very much!
Here are some pics of my awesome bro...also known as "Ferd" (yes, there is a story behind that nickname... :-)!

The Goofy man himself.

Partners in Crime!

"Wow man...this is, like, a majorly big chair!"

A mama's boy...and proud of it, too!

Sis and Bro...

Bored in the car...

...very bored!

Love you, Caleb!! Thanks for being a great brother!

The PERFECT Friend!

2008-07-15T09:44:00.015-04:00

I just read this awesome Psalm:

146:

1 Hallelujah!

My soul, praise the Lord.

2 I will praise the Lord all my life;

I will sing to the Lord as long as I live.

3 Do not trust in nobles,

in man, who cannot save.

4 When his breath leaves him,

he returns to the ground;

on that day his plans die.

5 Happy is the one whose help is the God of Jacob,

whose hope is in the Lord his God,

6 the Maker of heaven and earth,

the sea and everything in them.

He remains faithful forever,

7 executing justice for the exploited

and giving food to the hungry.

The Lord frees prisoners.

8 The Lord opens the eyes of the blind.

The Lord raises up the those who are oppressed.

The Lord loves the righteous.

9 The Lord protects foreigners

and helps the fatherless and the widow,

but He frustrates the ways of the wicked.

10 The Lord reigns forever;

Zion, your God reigns

for all generations.

Hallelujah!

Wow! How challenging! "Do not trust in...man, who cannot save. When his breath leaves him...on that day his plans die." Ultimately, no friend or family member can totally satisfy or fulfill my every need.

Sometimes it seems like they can. I know that I will sometimes have high expectations of my friends, and then suddenly, those expectations will all come crashing down around my ears when my friends don't fulfill them.

Now don't get me wrong...God gave us friends and fellow believers to support and love us. And I'm not saying that all friends are disloyal jerks! However, this Psalm says that my primary strength and hope should come from God. He is the only One who never fails me...ever! I mean, look at that list in verses 5-10!

He is the Maker of all that is...He knows the details of every one of His individual creations!

He is eternally faithful...He'll never "dump" us when we need Him the most!

He defends the "exploited"...He knows and cares when we're mistreated!

He provides for our physical needs...including our need for nourishment!

He frees the imprisoned, blind, and oppressed...His truth sets us free!

He looks after the "outcasts" and those who "don't belong"...we all feel like foreigners at one time or another!

He "helps the fatherless and the widow, but He frustrates the ways of the wicked." He is compassionate and loving towards those who need it the most. He is the ultimate Father!

He "reigns forever"...He'll never lose His authority!!

Wow...how amazing! Thank you, Lord, for your indescribable love!

Musical Monday

2008-07-14T08:35:00.008-04:00

Be Thou My Vision

by Dallan Forgail

Be Thou my Vision,
O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me,
save that Thou art
Thou my best Thought,
by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping,
Thy presence my light.

Be Thou my Wisdom,
and Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee
and Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father,
I Thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling,
and I with Thee one.

Be Thou my battle Shield,
Sword for the fight;
Be Thou my Dignity,
Thou my Delight;
Thou my soul’s Shelter,
Thou my high Tower:
Raise Thou me heavenward,
O Power of my power.

Riches I heed not,
nor man’s empty praise,
Thou mine Inheritance,
now and always:
Thou and Thou only,
first in my heart,
High King of Heaven,
my Treasure Thou art.

High King of Heaven,
my victory won,
May I reach Heaven’s joys,
O bright Heaven’s Sun!
Heart of my own heart,
whatever befall,
Still be my Vision,
O Ruler of all.

~~~~~

I love this hymn! God should be my main focus in everything I do and say. The 4th verse is especially challenging to me.

Water of Life

2008-07-11T10:44:00.016-04:00

Last summer, my family and I went to visit my grandparents in PA. While we were there, we decided to visit a local event that was presented by Wycliffe Bible Translators and JAARS. There were food stands, book stands, and speakers. One of the speakers was the son of Nate Saint, the missionary pilot who was killed by the Waodani tribe in Ecuador. Steve Saint explained how, through his father's death, the Bibleless and unreached Waodani tribe was brought to Christ. This story emphasized the mission of Wycliffe Bible Translators, who seek to provide various people groups with the Bible in their own language.

While walking among the various tables at the event, my mom and I found one booth where you could fill out a card and commit to regularly praying for a specific Bibleless people group. I chose to pray for the Ukhwejo people of the Central African Republic. Although I have prayed for these people pretty regularly, I am ashamed to say that I really haven't taken the time to find out much about them. I have free literature which Wycliffe provided for me, but I just haven't "felt like" reading that literature too thoroughly.

This morning, I was sitting at a desk having my QT (I answer the phone for the college where my dad works, and since the phone doesn't ring that often, I have plenty of time to read, etc.). I decided to check my inbox and found an e-mail from Wycliffe, encouraging me to pray for those countries who don't have God's Word in their own language. I ended up surfing their website for a while, and in doing so, I realized, "Wow! I have a Bible in my language!" It struck me just how tragic it is that millions and millions of people all around the world can't sit down every morning and have their "QT"! As I stared down at Matthew 27 this morning, I was saddened, thinking how those millions can't read this amazingly life-changing "water of life" that, when taken to heart, provides hope and reason for living. Even though they may have heard the gospel, they don't have an easily accessible version to read for themselves. It is true that God knows no language barrier; PTL, He can reach anyone through any means! And yet, what an amazing blessing it would be if the whole world could read the very words of God on a regular basis!

While at the Wycliffe/JAARS festival, we saw this chart:

Those are all the countries and people groups that DON'T have God's Word in their language! Wow!

Isn't this a powerful reminder that we should never take God's Word for granted? And yet so many times, I know I do! I have, like, 15 Bibles at home, and too many times I "don't have time" or "I just don't feel like" reading them.

This is also a challenge to me to start praying more meaningfully for the Ukhwejo...and for the others who are "unreached."

If you would like to find out more about Wycliffe and JAARS, click on the links above.

Following At a Distance

2008-07-09T08:34:00.011-04:00

In Matthew 26:33-35, we see Peter and the other disciples earnestly declaring that they will never desert their Lord. A short time later, Matthew says that "A large mob, with swords and clubs" descended upon the small group and arrested Jesus. This frightening scene would scare anyone, and the disciples were no exception. We read in verse 56 that they "deserted Him and ran away," despite their passionate "loyalty." What a turn-around!

In the very next verses, we watch Peter "following at a distance right to the high priest's courtyard." Peter, the first one to state his loyalty, followed Jesus at a distance.

As I read this passage, I started to wonder, "How do I 'follow at a distance'?" Well, I "follow at a distance" when I fail to seek after and follow Christ, either because I don't want to "get my hands dirty," or because I don't want to be known as "old-fashioned." This includes the times when I join my friends in watching a not-so-great movie, simply to avoid being labeled as "that conservative, sheltered kid." I also "follow at a distance" when I greet the unpopular girl at my church just enough to seem polite...and yet avoid showing a real interest in her life because I don't want to "put myself out." It includes the times when I grow lazy in Bible study and prayer because I don't "feel like it" (just like the disciples in verse 40). Wow...I really do "follow at a distance" sometimes! Yes, I'm guilty of all the aforementioned sins. And those sins make me guilty of denying Christ, just like Peter did.

Yet...

Christ forgives! Several months ago, our pastor preached from Mark 16 about Christ's resurrection. He pointed out, with tears in his eyes, that when the angels talked to the women at the tomb, they said, "...go, tell His disciples and Peter, 'He is going ahead of you to Galilee; you will see Him there just as He told you.'" And Peter. Why did Jesus include those words in His message to the disciples? Peter was one of "the disciples." Jesus didn't need to name him specifically! He included those words, Pr. Gerry said, to express his forgiveness to Peter. Peter was intensely ashamed of his denial of Christ. Mark 14:72 says, "When he thought about it, he began to weep." Perhaps Peter was so ashamed that he felt as though he had lost his Lord's favor. Yet Christ specifically says, "tell [my] disciples and Peter." He wanted to reassure Peter of His love and forgiveness...Peter was still Christ's disciple and friend!

Isn't that so encouraging? Even when we are guilty of following Christ at a distance, He still loves us. He has payed our price, and He forgives and cleanses! We are permanent members of His family, no matter what we've done! Thank you Lord!

One more thought...despite Peter's denial, Judas' betrayal, and his disciples' disloyalty, Christ still died for them...and us! He didn't throw up His hands and say, "Father, why should I die for these losers?!?!?! They just betrayed me!" Instead, He loved...unconditionally. Wow. How amazing!!

2008-07-03T08:54:00.010-04:00

Today I am thankful for God's love, God's wisdom, and God's perfect plans.

My family and I have been facing some "unforeseen" and difficult changes lately, and these changes could lead to even more difficult ones in the near future. It's interesting because a couple of years ago, I would never have dreamed that these changes could possibly take place. They DO NOT coincide with my plans...and even though these changes aren't tragic or unbearable, they are still stressful.

However...

It's been sooooo comforting to realize that God's got it all under control! Even though I never saw these events coming, He's known they were coming since before I or my parents were even born! When I focus on that concept, I feel so much better! BELIEVE ME, I have NOT controlled my mind perfectly. Yes...there have been times of hyperventilation!! But God's truth is still truth!!

Last week, our pastor spoke about Saul's conversion. He, as well as several of the men who shared, pointed out how Saul's/Paul's story was timed by God. For example, why didn't God appear to Saul before he had traveled 5 out of the 6 days it took to get to Damascus? In fact, why didn't God appear to Saul before He started arresting and killing all those Christians? The answer, Pr. Gerry pointed out, was that God had a plan. He works all things together so that He is glorified!! That means that the changes that my family is going through are for God's glory...He has it all figured out!! Thank you Lord!

I just read this Psalm, and even though plenty of people care about me (vs 4) and no one is hunting me down (vs 6), I can still take it's main message personally.

Psalm 142

1 I cry aloud to the Lord;

I plead aloud to the Lord for mercy.

2 I pour out my complaint before Him;

I reveal my trouble to Him.

3 Although my spirit is weak within me,

You know my way.

Along this path I travel

they have hidden a trap for me.

4 Look to the right and see;

no one stands up for me;

there is no refuge for me;

no one cares about me.

5 I cry to You, Lord;

I say, "You are my shelter,

my portion in the land of the living."

6 Listen to my cry,

for I am very weak.

Rescue me from those who pursue me,

for they are too strong for me.

7 Free me from prison

so that I can praise Your name.

The righteous will gather around me

because You deal generously with me.

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I Was Tagged!

2008-07-02T09:33:00.022-04:00

I got tagged by Julia...so here it goes...

Who is your favorite author and why? Probably Elizabeth George. I've read several of her studies for teens, including "A Young Women After God's Own Heart," "A Young Women's Call to Prayer," and "A Young Women's Walk With God." I loved them all!! Not only are these books challenging, but they also talk about issues and concepts in a tactful, God-honoring way. As far as I can remember, they don't include any unnecessary or disturbing details (unfortunately, my mom and I have discovered that many Christian studies for teens do). If you want to check these books out, click here.

Who was your first favorite author and why? I really liked L.M Montgomery. I read several of the Anne of Green Gables book, as well as the Emily series, and I LOVED them all! Oh, and I loved Louisa May Alcott; I've read "Little Women", "Little Men", and...I think I read either "Old Fashioned Girl" or "Eight Cousins." I really liked Patricia Reilly Giff as well. She wrote "Pictures of Hollis Woods," "Nory Ryan's Song," "Maggie's Door," and many others. Her books are so interesting and are usually historical. "Nory Ryan's Song" and "Maggie's Door" took place during the Irish Potato famine and really fascinated me.

Oh yeah...I was supposed to list one author...

Who is the most recent addition to your favorite authors and why? Well, I haven't really read "Do Hard Things" yet, but I glanced through parts of it, and I already know that the Harris brothers are soon to be on my "Fave authors" list! They present such a powerful and unique message, both in their book (I've heard!) and on their blog.

OK, that was fun! Now...who shall be the next victims??? :-)

I tag Laney, Arya, Christine, Liz, and my mom.

Musical Monday

2008-06-30T09:22:00.009-04:00

I just discovered this song by Joy Williams, and I love it. It's so beautiful. I've added it to my playlist, so if you want to hear it (Joy Williams has a gorgeous voice), just scroll to the very bottom of this page, and click on the song's title.

Beautiful Redemption

by Joy Williams

I've had my forty days and forty nights at sea,

I've had forty years in the wilderness, or so to speak,

I've walked with sand from the ocean floor on my feet,

To turn and say you left me.

I'm a doubting Thomas needing to believe,

I'm a perfumed sinner just like Magdalene,

I'm Judas kissing on your cheek eager to decieve,

I am all of these.

Chorus:
I cry, Father, Father, forgive me

You say, Child, I already have.

You are beautiful,

Beautiful Redemption,

You are Beautiful,

Beautiful Redemption.

I'm the guilty thief that's hanging by your side,

and my shame is dying with your sacrifice,

And all my fears come crashing down

as I look in your eyes,

I see paradise.

Hallelujah (we all, we all, we all fall down) x 4

You are beautiful,

Beautiful Redemption.

You are Beautiful,

Beautiful Redemption.

~~~~~~

Isn't that beautiful? He's already forgiven us, no matter what we've done. No matter how badly we behaved, no matter how greatly we've doubted, no matter how drastically we've strayed from Him...He's forgiven us! All we need to do is "cry 'Father, Father, forgive me!'" That's God's promise, and we can be certain that He will keep it!!

Please check this out...

2008-06-27T10:57:00.007-04:00

I'm attending the Rebelution conference with my family this summer, and I am so excited about it! The Harris brothers have done so much to impact Christian teens for God's glory!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Loving Others...

2008-06-24T09:22:00.011-04:00

One of the books I've been reading is called "Being a Girl Who Loves" by Shannon Kubiak Primicerio. This book has been very thought provoking for me personally. Today I was reading a chapter entitled "Every Hour of Every Day." The author described how challenging it is to continue in love, since "if you are anything like me, your attitudes of self-sacrifice and service are short-lived (pg 88)." She compares our "supply" of love to a car's fuel tank, and throughout this chapter, she talks about the need to go to Christ to refuel when our love has run dry. Below is a section which I found helpful.

Look at how John describes himself in John 21:20: "Peter, turning around, saw the disciple whom Jesus loved following them; the one who also had leaned back on His breast at the supper, and said, 'Lord, who is the one who betrays you?'"
Verse 24 confirms that John is talking about himself here. But think about that for a moment. Instead of simply saying, "Peter turned and saw me" or "Peter turned and saw John," it says Peter turned and saw the disciple whom Jesus loved, the one who had leaned on Jesus' breast. John was known as the disciple who loved....It was common for John to operate on a full love tank. After all, he was the "beloved disciple."
In 1 John 4:7-8 he tells us: "Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born on God and knows God." He's also the one who told us in John 3:16 that "God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have eternal life."
...John was a disciple who loved because he knew how much he was loved. Early on--commentators and theologians say when he was just a teenager, not older than fifteen or sixteen--John learned the art of leaning back on Jesus' breast. He learned the art of intimacy with Christ, always going straight to the Lord to fill his love tank. And when people asked him who he was, he answered, "I'm the disciple Jesus loves."
Knowing that--and basking in it--kept John's love tank full. And with a full love tank he was able to love others more effectively. Those who know how much they are loved love much. Do you know how much you are loved?

This was a challenge to me personally; too many times, I grow lazy in loving others. Sometimes I just don't try because it's too hard. Sometimes I rely on my own strength...and I KNOW that doesn't work! But if I choose to focus on how Christ loved/loves me, this will motivate me to respond in love, even when my natural reaction is to respond in irritation or frustration.

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Thankful Thursday

2008-06-19T08:57:00.008-04:00

Today I read Ps 138, and as I read, I noticed many things which I should be very grateful for.

Verses 1-3: "I will give You thanks with all my heart; I will sing Your praise before the heavenly beings. I will bow down toward Your holy temple and give thanks to Your name FOR YOUR CONSTANT LOVE AND FAITHFULNESS. You have exalted Your name and Your promise above everything else."

His love and faithfulness never falter! They are consistent and perfect, no matter what I do! It's also encouraging that He has "exalted...[His] promise above everything else." He keeps His word.

Verse 3 is awesome: "On the day I called, You answered me; You increased strength within me."

He gives strength when I ask for it! I don't have to wait; David says, "On the day I called, You answered me..."

Verses 4-6: "All the kings on earth will give You thanks, Lord, when they hear what You have promised. They will sing of the Lord's ways, for the Lord's glory is great. Though the Lord is exalted, He takes note of the humble; but He knows the haughty from afar."

I should be praising and thanking God for His promises, because they aren't just empty words. He WILL FULFILL THEM!!
I also see a challenge to humility in these verses. A haughty attitude distances me from a close relationship with God! But a humble attitude draws God's attention; He "takes note" of that kind of attitude.

Verses 7-8 conclude this Psalm:"If I walk in the thick of danger, You will preserve my life from the anger of my enemies. You will extend Your hand; Your right hand will save me. The Lord WILL FULFILL HIS PURPOSE FOR ME. Lord, Your love is eternal; do not abandon the work of Your hands."

Isn't that so cool? His love is eternal, and because His love is eternal, I can be sure that He will fulfill His purposes for my life! He knows that I am a work in progress, and He will not "abandon the work of [His] hands." He will allow nothing to happen to me that will prevent His plans from being carried out.

That's a lot to be thankful for!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Musical Monday

2008-06-16T10:32:00.011-04:00

We sang this hymn yesterday...it's really good!

Beneath the Cross of Jesus
by Elizabeth C. Clephane, 1830-1869

Beneath the cross of Jesus
I fain would take my stand,
the shadow of a mighty rock
within a weary land;
a home within the wilderness,
a rest upon the way,
from the burning of the noontide heat,
and the burden of the day.

Upon that cross of Jesus
mine eye at times can see
the very dying form of One
who suffered there for me;
and from my stricken heart with tears
two wonders I confess:
the wonders of redeeming love
and my unworthiness.

I take, O cross, thy shadow
for my abiding place;
I ask no other sunshine than
the sunshine of his face;
content to let the world go by,
to know no gain nor loss,
my sinful self my only shame,
my glory all the cross.

~~~~~~~~~~

When we trust in and medidate on Christ's redemption, grace, and mercy, we will have hope, stability, peace, and joy!! All because Christ cared enough for me to die in my stead...how amazing is that!?! Thank you SOOOO MUCH LORD!! How merciful He is!

Lord, help me to live my life in a way that points others towards Your grace and redemption, and help me to rely on You fully...for everything I need!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Thankful Thursday

2008-06-12T11:29:00.006-04:00

First of all, I would like to announce that...

(and l loved it!), and I'm thankful because I'm going to see it AGAIN today!! :-)

I'd also like to say that I'm thankful for godly teachers. I've had several in my lifetime, and I'd like to honor them today.

~Thank you God for Emily!

Emily was my first piano teacher, and she was wonderful! Not only was she a wonderful musician, but she was also a godly example to me and my brother. She spent time with us outside of piano lessons...taking walks, playing games, and talking to us. One of my favorite memories with Emily is the time we went for a walk and played "Pooh sticks" in the creek (for those of you who are not Winnie the Pooh fans...Pooh sticks is a game where you all throw sticks into the water on one side of a bridge, and then you run to the other side of the bridge to see whose stick passes under first! :0). Emily also made music FUN!! She'd make up interesting memory games, or she'd let me compose my own song. Thanks Emily!

~Thank you God for Ms. Deannie!

Miss Deannie was my second piano teacher, and she is also my pastor's wife. I cannot tell you what a blessing she has been to me...in more areas than just piano! She is definitely a great pianist (she is the one who taught me how to play hymns), but she also has been an amazing example to me and to everyone else in my family! She consistently reaches out to those around her, including the young girls at church. She also is a wonderful mother and grandmother. Her godliness is a challenge to my spiritual growth, and her thoughtful and kind attitudes and actions are a real blessing! Thanks Ms. Deannie!

~Thank you God for Tanya!

Tanya was my art teacher several years ago. She is SO creative and artistic, and she taught me so much! My favorite art project that Caleb and I completed with her was the paper town...we made paper houses, paper stores, paper trees, paper people, and even a paper campfire!! It was SOOO much fun!! Tanya also demonstrated a sweet, fun-loving, and godly attitude on a consistent basis; she continues to demonstrate that attitude now as a wife and mom. Thanks Tanya!!

~Thank you God for Mrs. Wood!

Mrs. Wood is my current piano teacher. She is a wonderful musician and person, and I love her!! One of the many things I appreciate about Mrs. Wood is that she has a very spiritual outlook on music. She sees music and teaching as a ministry, and she constantly demonstrates that view. She often brings spiritual lessons into piano lessons; this encourages me to always see music as a tool which I should use to glorify God. Her excited approach to music is very contagious...thank you Mrs. Wood!

~Thank you God for Pastor Gerry!

Pastor Gerry is the pastor of my family's church...and he is AMAZING!! He is one of the most godly men that I know. He is a prime example of someone who continuously serves and ministers to others. He teaches straight from the Word...none of his personal opinions. He and Ms. Deannie just celebrated 40 (yes...FORTY!!) years of marriage and ministry. FORTY YEARS, PEOPLE!! I don't know about you, but that is amazing to me! Pr. Gerry's relationship with God, his wife, and his congregation are such a challenge to me, as well as to everyone who he comes in contact with. Thank you Pastor Gerry! And last, but MOST DEFINITELY not least...

~Thank you God for my parents!

My parents have homeschooled me for 13 years, and have done a wonderful job. But aside from academics, they have taught me many crucial life lessons...over the course of 18 years! They are wonderful, godly examples...in their marital relationship, in their relationships with the students they minister to, in their relationships with us, and in their relationships with God. They are in the Word daily, and they are committed to each other and to being the best parents that they can be. Whenever my brother and/or I need to talk to someone, or when we need to vent our frustrations, they are always there. They will be celebrating 20 (yes...TWENTY!!) years of marriage this August. I don't know about you, but that is amazing to me! Thank you, Mom and Dad, for your amazing love and example...I love you!! :-)

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Trusting Him...

2008-06-10T09:04:00.012-04:00

Sooo...lately I've started thinking about trusting God...and I read these really cool verses on the subject yesterday.

Those who trust in the Lord are like Mount Zion. It cannot be shaken; it remains forever. Jerusalem--the mountains surround her. And the Lord surrounds His people, both now and forever.
Psalm 125:1-2

Isn't that so encouraging? If I trust God, I "cannot be shaken..." Ultimately, I cannot be defeated because God is on my side! In fact, He "surrounds" me! No matter what happens, if I trust in God, I can have peace and confidence, knowing that He is in control. He will not allow anything into my life that won't be for my ultimate good. Thank you Lord!

BTW...here is link to a great article I read today on the Rebelution website:
A Lesson From the Vikings: Do Hard Things

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Thankful Thursday

2008-06-04T16:09:00.007-04:00

Yesterday was my 18th birthday! And so...today I am thankful for:

~18 years of life~

~18 years of being raised by two godly parents~

~15 years with a great brother~

~The many wonderful friends who helped me celebrate this past week~

~CHOCOLATE TRUFFLE CAKE!!!~

~13 years of sound education~

~13 years attending a sound, bible-teaching church~

So...this morning I am lying in my bed (my cat lounging besides me)...and I see my brother peeking through my door. Then my family bursts through my door, Caleb vigorously clanging a ceramic pot with a huge spoon (this thoroughly traumatizes our cat, who races as fast as he can out of my room! :-).

Then they all start to sing to me (of course, at every pause in the song, Caleb clangs the pot again). I opened my presents, and then headed out to the kitchen to eat my mom's chocolate chip pancakes. For lunch, we all went out to lunch with our friend Ms. Deena, and then we came home and ate the CHOCOLATE TRUFFLE CAKE that Ms. Deena brought...it was AMAZING!!!!

We finished up by watching Anne of Green Gables and then going to church that evening. Over all, it was a very special day!

Thank you God for birthdays, family, friends, and chocolate!!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Musical Monday

2008-06-02T15:59:00.006-04:00

My dad read this hymn to us last night.

Join All the Glorious Names
by Isaac Watts

Join all the glorious names
Of wisdom, love, and pow'r,
That ever mortals knew,
That angels ever bore:
All are too poor
to speak His worth,
Too poor to set my Savior forth.

Great Prophet of my God,
My tongue would bless Thy name:
By Thee the joyful news
Of our salvation came,
The joyful news
of sins forgiv'n,
Of hell subdued and peace with heav'n.

Jesus, my great High Priest,
Offered His blood and died;
My guilty conscience seeks
No sacrifice beside;
His pow'rful blood
did once atone
And now it pleads before the throne

Thou art my Counselor,
My Pattern, and my Guide,
And Thou my Shepherd art;
O keep me near Thy side:
Nor let my feet
e'er turn astray
To wander in the crooked way.

My Savior and my Lord,
My Conqu'ror and my King,
Thy scepter and Thy sword,
Thy reigning grace, I sing:
Thine is the pow'r;
behold I sit
In willing bonds beneath Thy feet.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Wow, I've sung that hymn many times, but I've never thought about all the words! Writing them down makes you hear each line...and this hymn is definitely worth hearing! What a strong message! I love the part that says that all the glorious names are "too poor to set my Savior forth." I also love the line that says "His pow'rful blood did once atone/And now it pleads before the throne." Isn't that fact so amazing?? He pleads for US! The part that says that Christ is our "Pattern" and "Guide" is also challenging...I'm supposed to copy Him, just like someone would follow a pattern when sewing a dress. My mom loves the very last line of this hymn: "behold I sit in willing bonds beneath Thy feet." That is REALLY challenging to me! I need to willingly and TOTALLY submit myself to Him!! And after reading this hymn and seeing how awesome, gracious, and powerful He is, I realize that I owe Him my allegiance and service! Wow! Thanks for this reminder and lesson, God.

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Fun With Friends...

2008-05-31T20:52:00.011-04:00

We've had a lot of fun hangin' with Arya, Christine, and their family!

Christine feeding the geese at the park...

The swing set is awesome!

We decorated these slides that we got at the craft store...aren't they cute? Oh yeah...that's my brother's sock...he felt left out! :-)

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Friends are so much fun!
If you want to meet Arya and Christine, you can find the links to their blogs on my sidebar!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Thankful Thursday

2008-05-29T09:35:00.005-04:00

Today I am thankful that God doesn't show favorites!
I just read in Matthew 19; in this passage, Jesus compares the kingdom of heaven to a scenario in which a master hired workers at different times during the day. At the end of the day, he payed them all the same, even though they had not worked for the same amounts of time. As I think about this story, I'm really grateful that God doesn't show favorites! It's not like a game: we don't have to earn a certain amount of points to achieve a certain level of blessing! In the end, all Christians, both "new" and "old", will spend eternity with Christ!! And while we are here on this earth, He won't treat some believers better just because they are more "spiritual" than other believers. If that were the case...I'D BE IN TROUBLE!!! :-) I'm definitely not as "spiritual" as I should be!!
Thank you Lord!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

We're Back!!

2008-05-27T12:57:00.012-04:00

Vacation in Florida was wonderful! Here are some pics...

The World's Tallest Man at Ripley's Believe It Or Not museum.

We went mini golfing...

Dad went on this roller coaster at Sea World...he's at the end of the middle row in the white shirt.

Bored in the car...very bored!! :-)

The dolphin and whale show at Sea World. It was AWESOME!!

I GOT MY PICTURE TAKEN WITH PRINCE CASPIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Musical Monday

2008-05-18T13:19:00.005-04:00

I know I haven't posted Musical Monday for a while...but it's been a little crazy around here! Right now I'm sitting on a couch at a resort in FLORIDA!! Yay!!
Ok, so I just love this song by Casting Crowns...

Voice of Truth
by Casting Crowns

Oh,what I would do to have
the kind of faith it takes
To climb out of this boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown
Where Jesus is,
And he's holding out his hand

But the waves are calling out my name
and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
time and time again
"Boy, you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

Oh, what I would do
to have the kind of strength it takes
To stand before a giant
with just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound
of a thousand warriors
shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out
my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times
I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
time and time again
"Boy you'll never win,
you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

but the stone was just the right size
to put the giant on the ground
and the waves they don't seem so high
from on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
when I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
singing over me

But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says do not be afraid
And the voice of truth says this is for my glory
Out of all the voices calling out to me (calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe (I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe the voice of truth
I will listen and believe
'Cause Jesus you are the voice of truth
And I will listen to you.. oh you are...

This song is very encouraging to me, because, like everyone else, there are so many times when I'm just SO CERTAIN that I CAN NOT do --. I can't control my thoughts, respond patiently to stress, etc. But God's truth stays true! He's given us everything we need to make the right choices: His Word, direct access to Him through prayer, the Holy Spirit, etc. THANK YOU SO MUCH GOD!!!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

My Graduation Party...

2008-05-13T15:33:00.010-04:00

It was awesome! We thought the rain would keep us from being outside, but the sun came out just in time for the party start, and then left again right after the party ended! YAY!
Anyway, here are some pics...

Some friends from church helped us set up early...thanks guys!

My grandma made the cake...isn't it gorgeous? It tasted pretty good too!

I had so much fun! I'm so thankful for all of my family and friends and for the support they showed me on Saturday!
YESSS! I'VE GRADUATED!!!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Thankful Thursday

2008-05-07T18:58:00.009-04:00

Today I'm thankful that I'm GRADUATING!!!

I'm so excited!!

It's so weird to think that I'm DONE with high school!! I'm so thankful for the great education I've had, and for the great parents God has given me for teachers. Sometimes I'll think about how amazing it is that God placed me under the parents that He did...PTL!

Anyway, this weekend is my graduation party...and I am SOOOO excited!! I've had so much fun shopping for decorations with my mom!! I'll have to post later on and tell you how it goes!

We'll also be going to FLORIDA for my graduation present/our family vacation...I've never been there, and I'm very excited!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Thank You Lord for Friends!!

2008-05-06T21:59:00.006-04:00

I know it's not Thankful Thursday yet, but I wanted to thank God for my friends Arya and Christine. They just moved to the area, and we spent the whole day helping them and their family move into their new home. We had so much fun unpacking, laughing, talking, playing the piano, and just having fellowship. Isn't it awesome that we have brothers and sisters to hang with? God is so gracious! Arya and Elizabeth are two godly, wonderful young women, and they are such encouragements to me! We've known each other since we were babies, and I'm so excited that they are officially "local friends" now!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

My kitty...

2008-05-01T20:02:00.006-04:00

LEO!! Isn't he handsome??

Showing off his new tie...

Lounging on his sister's socks...

Studying history...

Taking a nap...

ISN'T HE CUTE!?!?!?!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Musical Monday

2008-04-27T19:20:00.006-04:00

I heard this awesome song on WRBS...so challenging!

Give It All Away
By Aaron Schust

Search my heart, search my mind, search my soul
Make me clean, make me new, make me whole.

Refrain: All of my plans, all of my dreams, I lay them down before Your feet.
All of my time, all that was mine, I now submit to Your design,
'Cause You are the one who can make my life complete,
You are the one who can give light to my feet,
You are the one and only one who dared to give it all away for me.

You are my strength, You are my God, you are my King.
You make me laugh, You make me dance, You make me sing.

Refrain

Everything inside, everything outside, I give it all away
You never change, but You rearrange my heart more everyday.

Refrain

This is so true! He really does rearrange my heart every day...believe me, he REARRANGES!!! :-)

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!

LOVE~BRIANNA

Thankful Thursday

2008-04-23T22:01:00.006-04:00

Today I am thankful for the Holy Spirit...and for God's power! Last night at church our pastor spoke about "being transformed by the renewing of our mind" (Romans 12:1-2). Renewing our mind means to change the way we think from worldly thinking to spiritual thinking. He explained that the verb "being transformed" means to "allow yourself to be transformed." We don't have to do anything special to transform our minds...it's not about us! All we have to do is listen to the Holy Spirit...it's about choosing to let the Holy Spirit control our lives and minds! Thank You God that I don't have to change in my own power!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!

LOVE~BRIANNA

A Very Late Musical Monday...

2008-04-21T18:36:00.019-04:00

I know it's a little late to be posting, but our Internet has been down half the day and I've been doing school work the rest of the day! So here's Musical Monday...a little late! I've been reading through the Psalms lately, and a section of Psalm 119 really challenged me. Since Psalms are really songs, I decided to write about this particular Psalm for Musical Monday. I'm quoting from my Mom's Amplified Bible; I think it's a pretty cool translation!

Psalm 119:9-16
by King David
How shall a young man cleanse his way?
By taking heed and keeping watch [on himself] according to Your word

[conforming his life to it].
With my whole heart have I sought You,
inquiring for and of You and yearning for You;
O let me not wander or step aside
[either in ignorance or willfully]
from Your commandments.
Your word have I laid up in my heart,
that I might not sin against You.
Blessed are You, O Lord;
teach me Your statutes.
With my lips have I declared and recounted
all the ordinances of Your mouth.
I have rejoiced in the way of Your testimonies
as much as in all riches.
I will meditate on Your precepts
and have respect to Your ways
[the paths of life marked out by Your law].

This is so challenging to me. As I get closer and closer to starting college, and as I see more and more of how absolutely WACKY this world is, I'm starting to grow more and more aware of the need to stay CLOSE to God. I've got to "meditate on" His precepts and "have respect to" His ways. I thought it was interesting that David says that he's "rejoiced in the way of [His] testimonies as much as in all riches." That means I need to cherish His commands, just like I would my most prized possession! Wow! Thank You God for giving me your Word to guide me, and PLEASE help me to stay close to You!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Thankful Thursday

2008-04-16T20:57:00.010-04:00

Today I am thankful for...

EVERYTHING THAT

I DON'T DESERVE...

which is EVERYTHING!

Here are just a few of those blessings:

~Forgiveness of sin,

~A guaranteed eternity with Christ

~A God who hears ALL of my prayers,

~Wonderful Christian parents

~A great brother with a sense of humor,

~A very cute kitty named Leo,

~A safe home in a free country,

~A solid education,

~A huge family of Christian brothers and sisters,

~God's Word...in my language,

~A great piano teacher,

~A wonderful English teacher,

~A great Christian college to attend next year,

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Musical Monday

2008-04-13T20:12:00.016-04:00

On Mondays, I will share the lyrics of a song that I like.
Yesterday at church, we sang this hymn:

The Longer I Serve Him
by William J. Gaither

Verse 1: Since I started for the Kingdom,
Since my life He controls,
Since I gave my heart to Jesus,
The longer I serve Him,
the sweeter He grows.
Verse 2: Every need He is supplying;
Plenteous grace He bestows.
Every day my way gets brighter;
The longer I serve Him,
the sweeter He grows.
Refrain: The longer I serve Him, the sweeter He grows.
The more that I love Him, more love He bestows.
Each day is like heaven, my heart overflows.
The longer I serve Him, the sweeter He grows.

This hymn encourages me to keep serving God. I won't have a trouble free life just because I'm a Christian; the words of this hymn are only true if I serve Him!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

THANKFUL THURSDAY

2008-04-10T03:41:00.006-04:00

As you saw in my first post,
I've been blessed with a wonderful mom.
And as you saw in my last post,
I also have a wonderful dad who served in N.O. last month!
I'm also blessed with a wonderful church.

I am so grateful to God that He brought us to our church 13+ years ago!The elders have sought, with God's help, to model our church after the New Testament church. Our Pastor has been serving there for about 37 years, and I appreciate him SO MUCH! He is one of the most humble and wise people I know. He teaches straight from God's Word...no personal opinions. And when gone to for council or advice, he points you straight to the Bible. My church also seeks to encourage family worship, and there are many kids (0-18yrs) in the service every week. As I've gotten older, I've really come to respect and cherish my church and our Pastor, as well as the fellowship at the church. We're known as the congregation that stays for a long time after the service to TALK, TALK, and TALK some more! :-) I love that! It's also neat because we have a wide variety of people in the congregation, and I've noticed that when I step into a group of girls to talk, we can all fellowship and enjoy each other, simply because we are sisters in Christ! Isn't it awesome that the body of Christ as a whole has that one common factor that draws all believers together?!?

Thank you, Lord, for my church...
and thank for Pr. Gerry
and all of the other Bible-teaching, godly pastors out there!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

My Dad's Trip to New Orleans

2008-04-07T14:18:00.005-04:00

This past month, my Dad led a group of college students on a trip to New Orleans. They were helping EFCA Relief Services in the Katrina clean-up project. Below are some pics from his trip.

Dad got to try his first crawfish!! Here, he is sucking the juice out of the crawfish's head...yummm!!

This is one of the HUNDREDS of abandoned/condemned houses.

If you look toward the back of this house's driveway, you'll see a plane! It randomly floated into this person's back yard, and has been sitting there for two and a half years!!

Condemned low-income housing projects...

One of the team's projects was to remove a roof that had collapsed onto a neighboring house during the flood.

This is part of the team and the family whose house they worked on during the week. This family's house had been blown off of its foundation during Katrina.

Cleaning up after a hard day's work.

The team slept at Trinity Church in Covington, LA.

Another destroyed home.

Dad putting siding on a house...

Another condemned house that the team had to clear out.

The Mississippi River

Beignet pastry from the Cafe Du Monde.

Trinity Church is known as "the church of the stained carpet," because literally hundreds of people from all over the country stay at the facility every week. These people work in teams to help the people effected by Katrina. There is a lot of work left to do...for more info on Trinity and on the Katrina project, check out the links above.

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

HYPERVENTILATION!!!

2008-04-04T09:14:00.009-04:00

I don't normally respond to stress very well. When something challenging comes up, I usually... kind of...sort of...definitely...hyperventilate! Mom normally tells me, "Brianna, think truth. Is this really a big deal?" I know she's right, but I usually just go right on stressing for a while.

OK, so last night, Mom and I were working on my blog. We were looking at templates and trying to find one that would match my header. Well, we decided to experiment, and we downloaded a template that didn't really match...so I started stressing! We also deleted stuff from the sidebar by accident, so I was stressing out about that, too. Then in the middle of all this, our Internet went down, so we couldn't change anything, and so I REALLY stressed out...did I mention I was stressed??? :-)

Well, then I started thinking, "OK, Brianna...this IS NOT WORTH LOSING A NIGHT'S SLEEP OVER...you need to start listening to your mom and thinking truth! What's the truth? Well, I know I'll be able to fix this tomorrow, and I also know that in 20 years, when I'm fondly reminiscing about my first blog, I probably won't remember that time that I had a funny looking template for a few hours. And obviously, God has some reason for all this happening. Maybe He's trying to teach me how to respond to stress." Well, it took me a while, but I did finally calm down, and I slept VERY WELL!! :-)

Philippians 4:8 says, "Finally, brothers, whatever is TRUE, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things."

This is something I'll be working on for a long time...until I die!!! THANK YOU LORD (and MOM!) for your patience!!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!
LOVE~BRIANNA

Thankful Thursday

2008-04-03T08:39:00.016-04:00

Soooo....this is my first post!! YAY!!

Today I want to thank God for my mom. She helped me set up this entire blog last night (she's good at it too!). She is such an INCREDIBLE mom, and I appreciate her so much!

One of the many things I appreciate about Mom is that she always strives to be an encouragement to her family (and she succeeds!). Whether she's making special chocolate chip-pecan pancakes for dinner, talking (and listening) to me as I bring up my frustrations, or taking my brother and me shopping for spring clothes, she's a constant example to me of how a godly mom should act.

I also appreciate Mom because she has a servant's heart for others. My dad works at Christian college, and a lot of college-age girls come to mom to talk about ALL KINDS of stuff!! And mom ALWAYS LISTENS!!! Even if someone stops by to talk just when Mom's about to do something else, she stops and serves. She reminds me of Jesus in Matt. 4:13-14. Jesus really needed to be ALONE, and yet, when He saw all those people who were in need, He gave up his much needed alone-time, and served! Mom practices that kind of serving regularly, and I'm very thankful for her example. Thanks Mom!!

SEEK HIS FACE WITH ME!!
LOVE~BRIANNA